Do I get to be a doctor in the end?

My father said go go into the clinical stuff, you will get better financed there. 

My grandma asked me: "Paedaki mou giatros tha geneis?" (My child are you going to be a doctor?) HA, did you get the double meaning? Sadly it doesn't work for Greek. So my grandma meant medical doctor. 

And I am wondering, do I get to be a medical doctor? Wouldn't that be cool? No, I would be more the scientist Dr., hiding behind the medical doctor, telling him what to do, just because I would know. (The leap is actually bigger, between what I study and what could be useful for treatment. But this we don't tell the committee.)

In the ethics application I need to describe why we want to test patients and what would be the potential outcomes. Hmm. Hmm, hmm. Das alles bitte auf Deutsch. So I need to learn to spell Schizophrenie in German, too. Got it right, but only when really focusing. I promised my big boss supervisor I would do the analyses of the results for the patients, too. Boahhhhh, what did I think of when I said I will do it. 

PhD phase - hanging belly - 10th month

After Evis recommendation I have decided to turn this blog into my thoughts and views on my PhD life. I am not sure in which language I will do that, though. But at least some people might get to know that they are not alone.

Sitting in the office and wishing I had data to analyze.
There is this time of boredom, I could be doing a million other things and use my time in a meaningful way, e.g. reading about fMRI, neuroscience, mirror neurons or at least some theoretical linguistic background.
And now I realize, I still have to read about the patients. I am supposed to study schizophrenic patients, too. And at least this time I got to spell schizophrenic correct on the first try! How do humans process language in natural contexts like story comprehension? What do schizophrenic (almost right this time, had to correct it) patients do differently and what cues do they neglect using?
Ok, and although I could be doing all that, I am not. Cause I feel there's nothing going on. And I can sense it, a stress period is coming, is coming, is coming, but it's not there yet. So, bored. And my supervisor is away, so no additional motivation, no specific tasks to get out of the way, just DULL. dull dull dull.